01.04.07
2007 Resolutions
I’ve asked myself what my resolutions for this year are. I thought about it for weeks beforehand and even the last four days and I’ve got – nothing. I guess I’ve been wanting to give up dairy for awhile. So I’ll plan on cutting dairy out of my diet for a year to see what that does to my body. More of an experiment than any real conviction to a better lifestyle.
I considered making up resolutions I knew I could keep.
Eat chocolate every week. Flirt more. Drink too much coffee. Go shoe shopping at least once every fiscal quarter. Collect random and useless odds and ends. Pick fights over shit that doesn’t really matter. Corrupt the young. Bitch about my weight. And probably fail miserably at keeping even these easy resolutions. However, with resolutions like these – you don’t really feel bad if you fail.
But this year I can’t say I have any real resolutions.
Does that mean I’m happy with everything the way it is? Not really, just a new understanding to the idea that if I want something different in my life, I don’t need to wait for a certain day, or month or year to make a change. This is such a new concept for me. The basic “green light” to everything I want, permission to go after anything at the drop of a hat.
No waiting for a significant other to decide if it’s okay.
No scheduling around other people to make things work.
No negotiating. No holding myself back to keep a status quo.
No begging or pleading for the one you love to see the obvious solutions.
No penalties for a fumble, but serious points for getting back up and going again.
No wishing I was better – simply the knowledge that when I’m ready to be better, I’ll make it happen.
I no longer need a ceremony, a starting date to look forward to like an escape from something I don’t like. I can imagine things and feel the current and when the shift hits the sublevel of my awareness – GO!
All that being said, there are things swirling in my subconscious waters; ideas and changes that I feel. Whether they will be marked and set into motion this year – I don’t know. Here are some of the things that are in the eddy.
Laugh more. Doubt less. Trust more. Argue less. Enjoy flexibility. Encourage roots.
Learn a foreign language, like how to love better. Dance in the rain more. Wear less clothing. Forget my shoes as often as possible. Enjoy time alone. Feel Gratitude every day, even if it’s something small – especially if it’s often over-looked. Forge toward Plan A. Keep childish wonder. Take pictures. Forgive. Write more poetry. Call friends more often just to say “I love you”. Keep family closer. Change my own oil. Smile at strangers. Make eye contact. Remember it is okay to be silent. Run toward something, not away from. Charge the lion. Claim my body. Re-home my mind. Do more. Fear less. Love more. Love more. Love more.
And oh, I do like the chocolate every week thing, so maybe I’ll keep that one. Do you have resolutions this year?
Kungfukitten said,
January 5, 2007 at 2:14 am
Change your own oil? I think knowing how to change it is enough. That’s why the goddess made Jiffy Lube and two year old issues of Road and Track magazine.
Now changing your own tire is another thing…
Athena said,
January 5, 2007 at 12:08 pm
I can change my tire. That’s no biggy, although it would help if I actually had a spare. And yes, the Goddess was good to us by makining Jiffy lube, but I still don’t know how to do it myself, which for some reason - causes stress.
I figure - let the old stuff drip out and put the new stuff in, right? How hard can that be? And yet, still gives me anxiety that I’ll screw it up.
dogpoop said,
January 5, 2007 at 10:23 pm
i’m going to vacuum at least once
this is more improbable than i can express with words
Chadely said,
January 15, 2007 at 11:28 pm
I thought i would let you know, hun, i too have resolutions this year…yup….
1. I am going to not hate as many people.
2. I am npt going to cuss at people so much.
3. I am going to spread love and happiness.
4. I AM going to have my third child this year, Mary is preggo!!!! go me..go me…go me.
Ok all the rest of that was Bullshite, cept 4. Can you imagine a world were i didnt hate people? Or a world where I…me…spread love and happiness…BAH….
Athena said,
January 16, 2007 at 12:38 pm
Hey Chadely,
I started laughing when I read # 3. Not that I can’t see you doing it, but I had this fabulous image of you slapping random people and yelling “be happy you fucking idiot”.
This brought a warm glow to my insides.
And
CONGRATULATIONS on #3 !!!!
The world is doomed. Three children by the Chadely. How can we ever defend ourselves from your offspring?
Chadely said,
January 20, 2007 at 12:44 pm
“but I had this fabulous image of you slapping random people and yelling “be happy you fucking idiot”… Have you been stalking me again? Besides that kid needed to be slapped.
as to my third you cant defend…….resistance is futile.
making the baby is 2/3’s of the fun….well 3/3 if its one guy and 2 chicks…hmmmm if you came for a visit..that would mean me..you and mary….hmmmm..And yes Jeff, we would send you pictures, i know you been dying for a picture of my nekkid ass
Athena said,
January 20, 2007 at 2:44 pm
Chadely, dearest, I refuse to share. Sorry, sweety, you’ll just have to settle for 2/3’s the fun…
:)