08.13.07
Plan A - under way
Ghosts of Seattle comes out on Wednesday. I confess that I’ve been so busy and stretched so thin with all the projects – that I haven’t actually planned a release event. I haven’t called local stores to see if they’ll carry it or even tried to plan a trip to Seattle to work on promotions. Bad business practice, I know. But I’ll think of something soon.
The wrap party for Hexagenesis was Saturday night. We saw the first fifteen minutes of the edited film, and I was surprised by how much fun it was to watch.
Homemade sushi, wine, and great company – we crowded together in the living room to view what we’d all worked so hard on and it was a blast. Uncomfortable in places. Yes, that old idea that it’s difficult to see yourself onscreen is confirmed – I will have to some things immediately different in the way I act on camera – which makes the whole long process and learning curve powerfully worth the experience.
I left the party feeling depressed, and drove back to the reception party for Mongonoodle. Crying on the highway and thinking, “I recognize this sadness.” It’s the letting go stage of a project. The finish line.
I’m sure I’ll see everyone from the project around. Portland is small and we made great friends so – it’s not the losing of people that felt like an end. I felt this sadness after I shipped the Ghosts of Seattle manuscript off to Schiffer for the last time. It’s the release.
So I cried and went to the reception where I cracked open a bottle of Pyrat, my favorite rum, and toasted with myself to the end of a project and the completion of my first step toward a life of living the dream I want.
Then, too drunk to drive, I slept on Team Awesome’s couch with the cats and woke smiling. I can’t explain it. I work exactly at 8am, happy and refreshed and ready for a new audition, which I have schedule for Tuesday afternoon.
All in all – Plan A is well under way.
BrianM said,
August 13, 2007 at 10:09 am
I’m so glad I found this blog. Your movement towards your dream life parallels my own dreams, although you’re further along the path than I am. I’m just now writing my novel and have no idea what to do to submit it or try to get it published, and I’m starting to set up some side projects that will, eventually, lead to income other than my soul-crushing dayjob.
You’re my hero!
Except for the crying part. And sushi. I’m not so enthusiastic about the sushi part.
Athena said,
August 13, 2007 at 10:44 am
Thank you Brian!
It’s always nice to know that the journey or the path runs parallel to someone else’s. There’s a strength in knowing you’re not out there, pushing yourself and being terrified by new ventures alone.
You’re not alone either, just remember that.
Good Luck on the novel. I am hoping this autumn to set up a writers and bloggers group for PDX so if you’re interested let me know. I can’t say there wont be sushi - but we’ll find you a suitable replacement
BrianM said,
August 13, 2007 at 12:15 pm
I’m definitely interested in the writer’s group!
I will eat sushi… but it’s never my first choice.