Just thinking

I was wondering, thinking about the LoveQuest and how my job fits in. Basically, what it boils down to is – I am attracted to men who are passionate, driven and excited about something.  I don’t care if it’s passion for growing orchids or passion for teaching children. I don’t care if it’s drive to create video games or excitement about cars.

I’m turned on by a man in his element. A man who looks at me with glitter in his eye when he talks about string theory or horticulture or books.

But what turns me on even more than knowing he has it – that passion, that energy for some topic – what turns me on the very most is knowing he is pursuing it with determination. Chasing the dream, burning inside with the fire of knowing he is living his personal legend. He is living it. He isn’t waiting to get by. He isn’t hanging in there until something better just happens along.

I can fully understand and appreciate the livelihood of a “means to an end”. I have the same means to an end. But I know where I’m going and I’m passionate about getting there and even more passionate about enjoying the road along the way.

I want a man who loves what he does at least 70% of the time. Good days far outweigh the bad days. Drama is inevitable but they love what they do enough to forge through it.

Some days are rough for sure, but most days they have that soft glow of a day well spent and a life well lived.

Then comes the honesty, if I am looking for that in a man - if I am looking for that in a partner – I better be willing to put myself in the same space. I better be ready to put my cards on the table and live up to the same expectation. It’s only fair.

I have a means to an end with my eye on the prize, but I believe to be a better and more able partner I need to take bigger steps to accomplishing my life of passion. Then they will be sharing in a fabulous ride rather than a downhill slide of unhappiness or complaining.

I want to be in my element so I can give that to someone who is as turned on about it as I am. I want to be able to bask in the too-excited-to-breathe-chatter of a man who just did something he’s been wanting to accomplish for ages. I want to be able to return the favor.

So, uhm, yeah… I was just thinking.