I hope to have my newest Fantasy Erotica book done by this autumn. I’ve been meeting with my new writer’s group and discussing goals to get completed. While they’re pretty hefty goals – I wasn’t that worried about it since giving up dating has opened up all sorts of energy and free time.

Celibacy has its perks.

Then again, it also has its drawbacks as writing highly erotic content when you don’t have someone to maul afterward is potentially problematic.

So the race is on. The sooner I finish my book, the sooner I can get out there and date and ease the tension –so to speak, but the more writing I do on erotic scenes, the harder it is to try and stay antisocial – because all I want to do is put out a booty call.

Then again, the second I do – I also know, my focus for writing is totally shot, and I do my best erotica writing during sexual drought.
I also haven’t met a man who is okay with a sexual relationship and doesn’t bring his funky baggage and therefore if I let them have one foot in… they pretty much camp out with all their needs and I never get any writing done.

So celibacy has made it much easier to get my work done.

Then again, the celibacy is taking its toll in that I’m ridiculously horny and writing erotica and burning out small appliance motors and molesting vegetable and tossing and turning all night with feverish sexual dreams and waking up unfulfilled and cranky but grinning with the hangover of sex that never actually happened.

OkayOkayOkay.

Clearly. I am conflicted.

There are benefits to celibacy, and benefits to non-celibacy.
I’m frankly going a little out of my mind. Thankfully I have not committed any felonies, but I fear that’s not far off.

The plan was to make it to May 10, 2010… and if I lose – I owe Kenya 20 bucks.

It’s getting much harder as I go along and I’m starting to worry I’m not gonna make – and if I don’t make it – I might not make it to the end of my next book.

Suggestions anyone?

Pony up the 20$ to Kenya and find myself a friends with benefits arrangement? Or hang on a little longer, don’t leave my house, just write while I can and plan an uber bash on the 10th of May?