Initium quaero gaudium
It happens between heartbeats. The universe folds into accordion levels catapulting you toward event horizon. You begin freefall.
It is the nature of such things that time slows down, bringing your awareness to an excruciating level of pain where all things are observed- calculated – labeled and stored, while outside your periphery, the universe passes by into infinity. You think for a breath that the next heartbeat will never happen; suspended time and space leave you in a soup of disbelief, isolation. You can clearly see the mist on a window pane across the room, feel each synthetic fiber of the blanket wrapped around your legs, smell the individual parts of your coffee still clutched in your grip – three day old cream, organic Arabica beans French-roasted, sugar too white to be healthy. All this, as you watch his mouth forms the words, “We need a divorce.”
Then the next heartbeat hits with powerful clarity. Sound waves skip, reality buckles and you reach catastrophic gravitational collapse. Everything you know is gone. Everything you love is displaced. Your Star condenses in that fraction of a beat to a gravitational singularity.
Wind howls past your ears as the tidal force of two points stretch you in opposite directions. The vacuum of space opens and you have a choice. The end is inevitable – but you can choose, Black hole – or Planetary Nebula.
A black hole is defined as an object or region in space, so powerful that whatever goes in, never comes out. The force of gravity in a black hole prevents even light from escaping. It is a one-way ticket. A void of no return.
I chose Nebula.
Now I am returned to my chemical base. I am elemental. Plasma- a cloud of possibility, scattered and full of charged potential. The Bliss Quest is a journey to collect my pieces, find my source, fuse my parts and remake my Star. What is bliss? I don’t know, but when I find out – I will certainly tell you.
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